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They both need nursing and personal care. Both in late stages. I was looking after them 24/7 with no time for myself or my own family. He would not accept outside help and expected me at 65yrs old with osteoarthritis to shop, cook, clean, do paperwork, take them to Dr appts, hospital appts, be called in the middle of the night to attend emergencies etc etc. with no thought to how it was affecting my health. Everything I did was apparently wrong. I have been pushed about by him, walloped by my mum etc. I knew this was their dementias making them do this but that didn’t help my situation. The final straw today was when I visited them at the home and he said angrily that I had put them there because it was easier for me. He said that if something happened to him he didn’t want my mum to be in the home. My mum is in late stages Alzheimers, has lost the ability to walk, speak, feed herself and has trouble swallowing, is doubly incontinent etc. I cannot manage to look after her full time. At the home she and my dad receive excellent care. My mum seems happy and content though confused, my dad refuses any help whatsoever, refuses to go to his bed, sits up all night in his chair and as a result has very swollen feet and legs and sores, refuses to have his dressings changed, refuses showers at times and refuses to change his clothes. He is also blind. I am at my wits end. I don’t want him to think badly of me at the end of his life as I love them and have done so so much for them for years. I feel that I haven’t had my retirement yet. Help!

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no one wants to be in care. Don’t visit so often This behaviours will continue until illness progresses. Think of yourself. They are frightened and want to go back to the familiar whatever you do DONT bring them home. Get on with your life. This does not make you a bad person.
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First, get that chair out of his room. My mother didn't sleep in a bed for seven months when she first moved to a nursing home, and as a result her legs swelled to three times their normal size and began leaking water like a tap. It was horrific. I moved her to a new nursing home (for other reasons), and we "didn't have room" for the chair, and she has to sleep in a bed. Now her legs are 100% improved and they've been able to cut back on her diuretics.

As to you other problem with your dad, as I said to another poster earlier today, your job is to take care of your parents, which means you need to make sure they're safe, have a roof over their heads, and food. You have done that. What you are not required to do is to sacrifice your life and health to do the work that takes an entire staff of trained professionals to do. Your job is to visit and bring news of the family and love them as much as you can.

I don't know how long they've been in the new place, but if it hasn't been too long consider taking a break from visiting for a bit to enable him to settle in and learn to rely on the professionals a bit more. I will say that the dementia patients at my mother's place seem to settle in pretty well after a couple of weeks especially if the families aren't hovering around a lot in the beginning. I had a hard time doing that with my mother, but I finally had to treat it somewhat like when I took my kids to school and had to leave them behind -- they're being cared for, they won't perish from missing me, and I'll be back later.
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You have loved them and done so much for them - at this point, the best thing for them, and for you, is professional care.  It is simply beyond what can be managed at home!  If they suffer from dementia, then they will not be able to understand this, but the facts are what they are. You urgently need to care for yourself!
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How about you agree with him that you did ‘put him in the home because it was easier for you’. Then give him a lot of detail about why it was easier. And ask him if he had any other solution. It’s at least as truthful as saying ‘no no it was better for you’, and might get a different reaction. Nothing lost anyway. He almost certainly doesn’t think that it was better for him, because you were killing yourself doing such a stellar job.
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You are a very good daughter, they are where they need to be. If you father wants to be a jerk that is his choice, and, it is not a reflection on you.

Don't let him toss the guilt card at you. You are entitled to your life, your retirement.

His behavior is unacceptable, visit less often and when he starts on you leave. Set your boundaries and keep them in place.

I wish you the best!
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You realize there is no reasoning with him. I too would have answered "yes your here because I can not physically care for you and Mom" no more explanation because he can not absorb too much info. He can no longer feel any empathy. They get self-centered like a child.

I doubt he is doing this on purpose. Its is the Dementia. I have a feeling he was always a demanding person. The Dementia seems to make this worse. You can't change how he thinks. They seem to get stuck on things. It can be something that happened years ago but they fixate on it. Since this upsets u so much, just visit for a little while or walk out when he gets going.
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Els1eL Jan 2020
Thank you JoAnn29.
The funny thing is that he was never a demanding person and the parent I could go to for any problems. 😥
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It’s the dementia. Don’t make any promises.
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This sounds like such a painful situation. Two things jumped out at me:

1. "Everything I did was apparently wrong."
2. "I don’t want him to think badly of me at the end of his life"

If the dementia is causing him to think #1, then it may not be possible, logically, to resolve #2.

I would try VERY HARD not to worry about what he (or anyone) thinks of you at the end of their life. You can't control what another person thinks, especially with dementia. You can and should feel gratified and proud within yourself knowing how much you love them and how much wonderful care you gave them (including the decision to place them in a nursing home). That's true with or without his good thoughts about you.

You did what you could for as long as you could, but it stopped making sense, so you did the next correct thing - placed them where they could get all the care they need.
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Dear Els1el!
You are a very responsible daughter and you have done everything right. Don't feel bad, just be proud of yourself for helping your parents for many years. It's draining. And it is time for you to take care of yourself and your deserved retirment. Putting them in the home is the best for them and for your family as they are cared for 24 hour by professionals. Your dad may resist at first, but he will adjust (well or not well) along the way. Blessings to you.
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There comes a time when you have to put yourself first. If you don’t look after yourself how can you look after other people. YOU are entitled to a life. You are allowed to enjoy your retirement. You have been a wonderful daughter. And you are their daughter, not their carer.
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