I feel terrible posting this but have no one else to talk with I need to figure out why an I so angry and feel that everyone looks at me as an idiot possibly because years ago my husband starting calling me names which off and on continues and now with me doing same thing have I become to believe things or what]caregivers for mom when something goes wrong I just right away ask why so many people think they Im just an asshole and easy to mess with could that be because I appear like Im not together which Im not then mad BECAUSE situation Im in oh gee nvmind Im so disgusted with caregiving and myself do not where to turn feel hopeless
As far as what my husband has been doing with the money....he says he hates the food at the facility (even though he used to say he loved it and they have the same cooks as they did 4 yrs ago) so he has me bring down frozen entrees and he is allowed to sign himself out (the facility is in a tiny little farm community, about 10 miles from a main highway) and go to the local Dairy Barn restaurant on his motorized chair. Staff also will pick him up food on their way to work. We have argued in the past about his need to "eat out", but as it has been mentioned, he is very willful. I have his parents to blame for that. He was raised that he only needs to do what he wants. If it is too hard or he just doesn't want to do it, then don't do it.
I have been seriously thinking about a divorce lately. I have spoken to my mother and she has invited me to move to her house and store my things in her basement until I find a place of my own. I am taking care of my younger stepson's boxer...he works in other states doing construction. If I just move, the dog won't have a place to go, and I don't want my stepson to have to give him up. We gave away a dog to a couple who were really good, but their neighbor's son killed the dog by chasing it down with his pickup for the fun of it (this is a whole other story!!!) So I couldn't face that happening again in any form. I've decided to start planning, though, and get my ducks in a row.